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::update:: / Tuesday, August 29, 2006

update. on my prelims and so forth. and yeah, i'm gonna post my LOUSY marks up here on my blog. it's super lousy, but i wish (and i would) do MUCH better for my PSLE. so, it's kindduf like my goal setting or something..

ENGLISH: sigh. i tot i would get and A* for this. but i could kiss it good bye already.

Listening: suppose to get 20. but i got 19.
Oral: uhm, 30.
Main Paper: 81.5/95. this is SUPER LOUSY. i wonder how i got that mark.....sheesh. omg.
Compo: not given yet

MATH: many many careless mistakes. i could have gotten 93. but sigh, i got 93-7 = 86.

CHINESE: finally, and A*. it's a miracle. man, a miracle. i was like close to losing my A* and telling grace, "aiyah, i could kiss my A* away liao. i mean, i could only afford to minus 4 marks for compo. it's like impossible for me lah!" than she nodded, it's a miracle that this actually did happen

Listening: 17/20. bad
Oral: 47/50. okay - rather rather satisfied
Main: 82/90. bad
Compo: woot! it really came true...i minus 4 marks. yupps. 36/40. rather surprising ain't it?

Science yet to get back, as well as social studies. and hohoho, what i did for the ss powerpoint was rubbish. it wasn't even up to standard okay. it was done in a hurry...how come she doesn't give us more time??

uhm: will be setting up a new "blog" in a sense, yeah. you'll find out more later. still working on it.

*turn up the stereo. whoa!*

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::fickle:: / Thursday, August 24, 2006

i am fickle. yupp. sigh, the friends just change so quickly over a day. but i dono whether i'm still blinded by who ARE friends and who are not. some just act so nicely someday and the other day they ignore you as if you're invisible or what. and why's that so? because, hahaha, they've been accepted into the popular troupe/clan. whatever. and what do they consider you as? social outcast. ohh, maybe not so serious, but not a friend anymore, at least. so that's what life is. you get blinded so you don't know who your friends really are. who are those who would stand by you when you are in need. to lend you a shoulder to cry and laugh upon. who are those very few? some people are selfish, for the good of oneself, they take advantage of their "friends" to help them in their schoolwork or to gain popularity blah blah blah. those are people who are not worth being friends with? what for, in the end, you just get dumped?

friends. what a big word. you know what, to say the truth. to be honest. you think i have alot of friends, eh? like they hand around me or something...(umm, i'm not popular). or do you think i'm like super well-liked and i have absolutely no flaws. *pukes*. uh huh, so wrong. wrong! i do not have true friends, what do i consider true friends? those who are put under platinum...no, don't refer to your autograph book or whatever. cos, at that time, i might be blinded. i maybe still am, but i'm having laser so maybe i can see better. haha. clear my cataracts...

did you know that i'm being backstabbed? well, in a way yes. that shows that i am still FLAWED. i always had been. people do not wan quan like me, okay? i can think some adjectives they describe me.....i mean, i've got my resources. so don't ask me how i know:

fake
three-timer.
b*tch
act smart.
over-competitive.
TOO high expectations. this i don't mind.
act seh..

and so on. you see what i mean? some people are flawless okay? i mean only for minor flaws that are changeable. i know some. but i won't name them..busybody. hmph.

i'll be adding more people to my list of REAL friends. just think about who really are your friends, and who are not. those who are popular are those who are surrounded by true, TRUE friends.

signing off.

english prelims: over. composition was easy. got a few questions wrong in main paper. overall ok.

math: fine. i had to do 6 skipped questions in half an hour and i did! woot. yay me. *claps*

chinese: i have DOZENs of questions wrong. don't speak about it.

science: was not as hard as expected. got a few questions wrong i think.

hcl: not over. shouldn't be too hard..have to work on compo.

ss: ditto. but have to revise....it would be difficult i presume. hmm.

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:: top ten:: / Wednesday, August 23, 2006

TOP TEN PEOPLE FROM GEP. in no order. not to be offended.

Lynn (personality+fun)
Jinyin(ditto)
Zhiwen(personality+smart)
Janne(all of what i just mentioned)
Juanda(no funny ideas please. fun)
Changrui (ahem. ditto)
Esther (ditto lynn)
ryan ng. (sweetness. ahem- to other pple)
zongchen. (nice)
arivan. (fun)
can i please add one more?! sr. (sweet and nice.)

TOP TEN GEP TEACHERS.

Mrs. o. (bestest teacher ever)
Mdm chng. (ditto)
Mrs Tan. (caring)
Ms Mok. (nice)
Zheng Laoshi (funny and good)
Cai Laoshi(ditto)
Zhou Lao shi. both. (nice and good)
Ms Thiam. (ditto)
Mrs. Boey-Lim (ditto)
Mr Tan (ditto+funny)

TOP TEN MOST POPULAR PEOPLE.

SR. (you know)
Kevin. (ditto)
Shiyin (ditto)
Bong (")
Ryan Ng (")
Juanda (among the boys, i think)
Yirong (being one of the head in the family tree)
Christabel(ditto ryan)
Rach(for her ego and smartness)
Me? nah. i'd say Arivan. (being minister's son and all, he have BIG responsibilities)

TOP TEN MOST WELL-LIKED among friends

SR.
Bong.
Yirong.
Jieru (i think)
Lynn.
Juanda.
Kevin (that i'm not sure)
Marcus Yeo (errh?)
Ryan Ng
i dono. Amanda?

TOP TEN IN MY LIFE. make it thirteen

Chocolate. anything with choc.marshmallows
Friends. lynn and jinyin...
Green
Johnny depp and adrien brody (that guy from king kong. whoa)
umm, someone.
english poetry. just pen and paper.
nature.
a jet plane to fly anywhere. colorado!
cash. lots.
camera. photography.
ohh, just two more. books! as in: phillip pullman, percy jackson, meg cabot, foxtrot!
a computer. i can blog and watch tv! make it have cable...
oh one more, clothes! how can you not survive without it. as in retro ones...like esprit, gap and blah blah blah. if you're thinking of food? i can live on chocolate.

that's all folks. buh bye.

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::frost:: / Sunday, August 20, 2006

you know what? i'm soooo not gonna do anything already. nopes, all my energy would be conserved for work. okay, and play. work hard, play hard. and i really have to say sorry to janne, 'course i could gossip no more. not because there's no "juice"or anything. it just is because like i don't care about it anymore. so what about the bgr thing and all the other personal stuff that you pple claim that i know (alot about freak).and blah blah. WHO CARES? i mean, i don't. what's the point. i mean, we have a reason for living. but when we have a mouth, it's for communication. not for gossip alone. come to think about it, gossip might be fun but it's suppose (ok, i know this is stereotyping) to be for aunties and big BIG blabbermouths (no offence). and not for someone so sophisticated and elegant like me. *waves hand*. haha, the ego's kicking in.

BGR that, BGR this. don't you feel/realise that what kept the gepers talking is something about BGR. and not about school work or some other weekend leisure thingy. i mean, not that we're nerds and all. course we are SO not. we shouldn't even be involved in such things at such a mere age of 12!!!! i don't think our forefathers even have a notion of this BGR thing when they were TWELVE. they just lived life by and by.

and i think that it's because of this BGR tat we have so many un-answered questions. people keep pondering....what is love? how come i'm feeling like that? frisson? should i? ack. ACK. that's just a total waste of time ok. we could sooo ponder on this later. when, like more problems crop up or smth. some people are troubled by this and i'm contradicting myself. i went through this phase earlier this year. to think i even thought of it.

you know what i want to be? it seems that sooo many characters would be cool.

frosty-ice cool character. you keep our cool, giving this superior glow..like you're untouchable. you don't harm anybody, nobody harms you. people instead, look up to you. like you're this omg-star.
gothic style. you obsess with black and black is a cool colour. black nails, black shirts, black lips, black hair. makes you stand out and have this airy personna. very very unique, i'd say.
open, funky (almost dancing), retro person. oh, the well-liked. like you're always on the move on the very fashion trends and you speak alot. smile and laugh alot. everyone wants to be with you.
ohhh. and the next one, i like.
sophisticated and elegant personna. like you're a off to stardom chick or smth, but you still keep calm and beautiful. you walk with this airy and with this certain elegance. you know when to talk, and when not to. your smile, eyes and superior-young-leader-lady-that-every-boy-wants character captures all. WHOA.

heyyy heyy, which one do you like? i don't believe i am even blogging even though tmr prelims. i'm so gonna die.....sigh.

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::ouch:: / Thursday, August 17, 2006

some people just wanted me to blog. so i did. it is coming back again. oh no, the exam jitters. i cannot believe it, i mean like is like WHOA! the prelims are here. and are NEXT WEEK next week!!!!!!! arhs. today is oral exam day 1. wasn't too nervous but have to admit i was. i kept denying it to freak. and he was like, "what?! wah lau. you not scared meh?" and he clutches his chest so dramatically and give me this open wide stare. and i gave him this: so-what-if-i'm-not-scared look.

and like so soon, it was my turn. i've been waiting for like 3h and it seems like 30 mins or something. kx was out so i had to seat the waitingchair. you had to seat a total of FOUR chairs, you know, tension. it makes people fell nervous. like you're going to have an interview with POLICE or smth. but overall i went well. umm, stumbled a bit, and wasn't as fluent as the prelims. soo, i wouldn't get full marks.....not that i really am so despo to get it or smth.

anywae, i trodged to the library and then it was like SUPER NOISY. but the noises are very muffled, like swarms of bees just buzzing and buzzing. so i went to where my frens were (bean, janne, chris, jin, lynn.....) and started jumping. and talking in my lower voice minus a volume notch down, excited to see my friends.... iwas like in a room of boys, with kx in front of me. bc at the back. and freak who keep on asking me.... and then :((( someone ( i shall not say who) said so ever sacarstically, "apparantly, cheryl, you are not suppose to make noise here." and then she smiled this wicked smile. i smiled back and ignored her. if i was in a bad mood i would just shoot out, "uh huh?! apparantly, if i make this teeny weeny voice. it wouldn't make a difference to how much noise there is in here." and i would smile this wicked smile.

you know.......she's was a friend last time. but now, it seems that she's bei ng so cold and i don't know her anymore. she is just beginning to drift apart. she only calls for my help when she needs it. besides that, she just seems like she doesn't know me. i don't bel,ieve she even treats me as a best friend last time. compare it to what she's treating me now. garbage, more like it. in school, she seems like she's forced to be my friend. because, the friends i hang out with is who she wants to hang out with. i have no idea how come she detests me like that. i mean, it came so suddenly.

oh. maybe i'm stupid or smth and my intellectual ability does not match up to her oh-so-mighty IQ level? i don't think that's the case cos i don't think she's very smart. she wants pple to think she's smart. she thinks she's smart. but other pple don't think she is. no offence. maybe she thinks i'm bossy and that i love to control pple or smth. and that i want to show the world that i'm better than you? i dono, she's giving me that attitude. that i've done smth wrong. but hello? i don't think i did. n i noe that she have a competitve (over) nature, but i'm not that good am i????? so what's wrong. i mean, if given the same opportunities, she might shine too...

i still have no inkling. and when i ask ---- (sm1-you would pester her if i tell), she just asks me how i know if it's true. omg, it's sooooooooo very obvious and...urgh.

i'm like smsing her to patch up or smth. indirectly of couse. and she replies me so sacarstically. "ohh, it went fine (i was asking about her oral). u did very well right? you confident of getting full marks right?" i replied, and she didn't reply back. and so i went to sleep.......

green and orange cow skin watch cum mirror. sigh

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::back:: / Friday, August 04, 2006

hello. it's been a long long time since i posted. i know, pple like jin, zhen and rach had been bugging me all long to post. so i had to. i mean, seriously, i only blog when i have time or inspiration attacks me. but somehow, it hasen't. yet.

it was a few thousand years back. and there was a migical realm, where the pure exists. dream. there was a young lady, fourteen. her name was one that holds many future, rene. rene was close to perfect, beautiful, bold, charismatic and funny. everyone wanted to be her. everyone wanted her to love them back. and indeed she did. but it was not the love the men wanted. she didn't understand. it was something so strange and forlorn. she didn't know it. love: stranger.

so today. it was basically like any normal day. it was well...practice paper day. SHOOT. we had math paper - which cut into our CME period. it's really bad okay, math is my worse subject and i'm in absolute no mood to do it. oh yeah, so freak finished doubly fast. in two periods. i mean it's pressurising okay. urgh. and during the cme period i continued trying to shut out the humming of freak. he hums/sings badly. it's so DEEP. boo! and i found out that i don't know how to do 4 questions - the BACK four. great. i'm gonna flunk....so gonna. i mean thanks to my poor math and freak's bad singing. yupp, i'm gonna flunk. i still dono two questions...it's five marks. congrats me. i have no idea what to do with my maths. and NEWS FLASH pple, prelims is no the 22nd of August. i am gonna flunk....oh no.

she just didn't know it. the stranger was inside her, but the someone to break it open was not here yet. the stranger was all around her. but she did not feel it. future: that was her life. the prophecy said so. she was to recognise the stranger. more than the others. but the time is not yet here. & On the other end of dream, vicda roamed. noticing inns, bunking into them. he was a knight. vicda's lips were tight shut, forced into a smile. he was untalkative, but he was bright. he has not reavealed his true self. he was gentle, soft hearted and shy. but under his curled mousse hair, laid a pair of eyes, milky blue, downcast, but still, charming. charming. & rene and vicda. their roads would cross at one time. fate foresee it. but the future: would they go seperate ways, or as one?

and then, there was xiao ce yan. at first glance it was quite difficult. i mean my gai zheng cuo zi is really disgusting. but luckily i managed to finish it lorhs. i mean it's HALF AN HOUR and we're suppose to finish 2 compre, 1 cloze and 3 other minor things. i really could die. i mean for my open-ended compre, i think i written crap. serious. it was just repeating and repeating lorhs. i'm soooo gonna flunk it. i didn't revise...but that's not a reasonable excuse. more like i (really) didn't hear/understand what the teacher was talking about.

it's soooooo tiring okay, besides doing all this mock papers, i still had to revise. you know, for the upcoming prelims and PSLE oral exam. i really can't believe it, i really REALLY went through my prelim oral already. i only like really realised it today. i mean, it seemed like i took it for nothing. without pressure. i guess i could do my PSLE oral well...if only it's without pressure. sigh, i wonder whether i could do it.

rene wandered. vicda wandered. their paths are aobut to cross. & crongh looked through the magic ball and smiled: rene, my dear rene. you have to treasure love. you don't know yet. it's going to happen. treasure it remember. & rene's heart burned. it was overwhelming with such emotions. but she doesn't know it. she thought she heard somebody and when she heard him (or her), her heart ached - like someone, something, was trying to get out.

arhs. another mock paper. english, this time. i tot it was kindduf simple actually. i finished it about 30 mins before time ended. nothing much i could say about this paper though. and oh! i got back my compo marks. heh! guess how much i got?! it was the highest this year. it's not very impressive, but good enuf for me. 32! yeah! this time i tried to incoporate foreshadowing and opening technique inside my story. and it was a good attempt. yay! the last time i did foreshadowing....i ruined my compo. i got 26 only. it's measly....sooooo measly.

i personally feel that english rocks. language cannot be explained. words really do make wonder. how i wish I was the one who invented words and language. oh, what glory! it really rocks and all english teachers do too! mrs o esp. and mrs tay. and mrs tan....she's just nice.

I hate braggy people. and kevin is one of the few. and he beats pple for nothing. it's almost a nightmare sitting with him sometimes.....ack. :(

"I..don't know. What....is it?"

oh yeah. nobody asked me about my rgs interview. ohh, and thanks to bernice....i wasn't too nervous. they asked a couple of questions about cmps n some simple questions. i answered them (duh). i wasn't, uhmm, satisfied actually. i wanted them to ask funny questions. it has left no significance to me actually. no offence.

many, many things happened these days. and i have been receiving much gossip. there's the rachel and miss yeo one which all of you know. so i'm not gonna say it. and then there's the jinyin one. but i'm gonna keep it low-key. so no-one knows. only a couple of girls whom jinyin told. and then there's the zx, leevoon, alicia, and chloe one. that's really funny. crying because of three girls. is that childish or what? zx really needs to grow up sometimes.....he's living in his OWN world. and not life.

& to be continued

i've been reading books now. quite alot actually. there's mediator book 1 (lent it from rachel), i heard that it was nice and the cover is attractive so i just borrowed it. it's quite okay....

then there's the prophecy of the stones. it's REALLY nice. i mean, based on the fact that i love fantasy, fairytales and all....yeah. it's good.

and many other books too. library books, school library books and my magazines. reader's digest, and TIME. i think my eyesight is really failing me...i shouldn't read anymore books, i think. for the time being that is. ohhh, and there's eragon. that book is good. i've just started reading...and i'm hooked. the dragon drawing is really nice.

oh well, gtg. i've got to lian xi my yan jiang. it is this saturday. SHIT. oh no....great. i've something on on saturday. something SOOO important to me. that i could faint if i don't go for it. it's my cmps prize, being recognised by singapore. omg, omg. i'm gonna faint. SHYT!!!!!!

omg omg, OH MY bloody f-------- GOD!!!!!!!!

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